It's been so long since I blogged, and there is not much to blog about infertility wise. Still infertile and still plugging along with all the treatments.
In other news, Happy New Year to all. I feel pretty indifferent about the New Year myself. My husband keeps wanting "us" to put together a list of the things "we" want to accomplish this year. I keep thinking, well, nothing really. Not that I've ever been a resolution maker, but I think my process of putting all my desires and worries and dreams on the altar and just handing them over to the Lord may be working. I just want to roll with whatever happens. I don't have any big things I resolve to do our want to accomplish. But, p.s., Lord, I would really like to have a baby, please! Having a baby, though, is not really a thing to put on a "to do" list, as I have learned after 4 years of trying.
I do feel pretty mellow, though. I hope this feeling lasts. Hopefully it's not just the byproduct of having taken the whole last week off! Man, that was so nice! I love just living my life and not having to get up at a certain time and bill hours all day.
We did Christmas Eve here with my husband's family and then drove to Shreveport, Louisiana Christmas morning. Normally, we would spend the entire Christmas here and then go to Louisiana later in the week. (My husband always gets that week off since he works in a family business, and so I always just take that week off and we do some traveling). The next morning, Monday the 26th, we drove down to New Orleans with my mom, her husband, my niece, and my grandmother, and watched the Saints game. That was so fun! The Saints won, of course! It was exhilarating to be a part of that crowd, all chanting, "Who dat! Who dat! Who dat say they gonna beat dem Saints!" You would not believe how loud it was. My husband joked that he thought the bolts were going to come out of the stadium.
The next day, my husband and I stayed in New Orleans and the rest of them drove back to Shreveport. We met up with my stepbrother and his girlfriend who had come down also from Shreveport. We did some window shopping and had some lunch, and then we all went to a fancy dinner at Dickie Brennan's steakhouse and saw some live jazz at some club.
Then, the next day we came back up to Shreveport and spent the next few days hanging out with my family. I turned 33 on the 29th, and it was low key. My mom and I had lunch and did some shopping, and then all of us went out to dinner that night. The next night, my husband and I went over to my dad's and had dinner with him and his wife, my aunt and uncle, and my grandparents from that side. Then, on New Year's Eve, we drove back home, ate pizza, watched a movie, popped some fireworks, and went to bed. We wanted to get back early so that we would have a day to get re-organized before Monday hit.
Well, Monday was yesterday and lo and behold, the whole world took Monday as a holiday. My husband and all of his brothers went to work, but none of their customers were open, so they really could not do anything except go through e-mails. I work from home, so I did a little working, and more cleaning.
Today, it's back to the real world. And real it is. The credit card bills have been coming in, and that is scary. I have been thinking though that my mom once said "just get yourself in debt real good, and then you'll get pregnant." Ha ha. I wish. I'm not going to test the theory out, though. I just paid off my car, hallelujah! And, the student loans are whittling down. I normally have no credit card balance, but we may have one from December, as I was ringing it up and not working much. Back to that grindstone!
But, I am determined not to let that grindstone stress me out. I pray that the Good Lord just sends me enough work to get the bills paid and that it is work that is not stress inducing. I'd like to keep the mellow feeling! I guess that could be my new year's resolution: be mellow.