Tuesday, August 21, 2012

I could use a glass of wine

But, of course, I'm not going to have one!  But, I really could use it.  By the way, the gestational diabetes test is over with, so I just went ahead and did it.  But, I was crying through the whole thing because of how my doctor reacted to my desires for certain things to happen in my c-section.  I had scheduled in advance a longer appointment, so he knew I was coming to talk about the c-section.  He was almost antagonistic, though, when it came down to my requests.  He at first refused to read a medical journal article I brought in that explained the "family-centered" c-section (which includes things like not strapping down the mother's arms, not giving her so much medication that her arms are heavy, placing the baby immediately across the mom's chest with a blanket over the two of them instead of taking the baby across the room to a warm table), but eventually toward the end of the meeting folded the article and put it in his pocket.  I just felt like I was having to fight with him, and that put me in a very emotional mood as soon as I walked out of his office.  I did not expect him to be so prideful and "know it all" and dismissive.  Maybe after he has time to think about it all, he will lighten up and come around, but right now, I'm still crying (thanks, hormones) and thinking maybe I should switch doctors.  

I mean, there were other things I wanted to discuss with him and had articles I brought, but I sure didn't bring those up yet.  I wanted to talk about adhesion prevention and give him copies of Dr. H's article and another article I found that specifically talked about adhesion prevention in c-section.  I did ask about sep.rafi.lm, and he claimed that it hasn't proven to make a difference, but that's not what I've read.  And, so what if it doesn't? Can't hurt, right?  Can he please just use it on me given that we know I'm prone to adhesions?  My husband thinks we should stick with him and just bring up one issue at each visit, but after today, I'm not so sure things will go any differently at future visits.  Lord, I just bring up the idea of placing the baby on my chest, and he goes off claiming it can't be done.  Imagine how he'll react when I ask him to close my uterus in a certain way!

I wish I knew of a way to find a new doctor that I could know in advance would have no problem with accommodating some alternative ways of how a c-section usually goes.  I wish I could just go to Omaha and have Dr. H do my c-section.  Better yet, I wish I could just have a good old fashioned home birth.  

Glucose Test

I have my next OB appointment this afternoon, and I seem to recall him mentioning that they would do the glucose test the next appointment.  What is the point of that?  If I had diabetes, wouldn't I be heavy?  And, does it matter if I'm having a planned c-section?  I've read that the problem with gestational diabetes is the risk of a big baby.  Well, if it's being cut out of me anyway, then that's not an issue.   Plus, I don't want to pollute my body with a bunch of sugar (despite the ginormous cotton candy picture, I only ate a couple of bites).  Can you refuse this test?  Is there a real reason for me to have it?

Sunday, August 19, 2012

Tuesday, August 14, 2012

Baby jacket finished

Drum roll, please . . . . .  I finally finished the baby's jacket that I was knitting, and here it is:

I'm so happy with how it turned out, and I can't wait to see our little baby in it!  Now, I'm working on a baby cocoon type thing, or sleep sack with a matching hat.  I'll post pics when I'm finished.  :)

Wednesday, August 8, 2012


Ok, I'm starting to feel like Job.  First, it's ulcerative colitis.  Then, constantly low progesterone readings during this pregnancy.  And now?  Freaking skin cancer.  I can't believe it.  I randomly had a bleeding mole on my inner thigh around the 4th of July, so out of caution, I made an appointment with the dermatologist and they thought it was suspicious, so they removed it.  Then, they call today and say it's basal cell carcinoma and that I'll need to come back in after the baby is born and apparently have my leg dug into some more and burnt.  Oh, and to top it all off, this is going to be done just 2 weeks after a c-section.  Come on!  Good Lord!  It just feels like malady after malady just keeps coming.  And, what the hey?  My inner thigh never sees the sun.  So, how can this happen?  I feel so beaten down and exhausted.  I'm tired of health issues and am certainly not looking forward to having my leg dug into while I'm recovering from major surgery and am sleep deprived from having a two week old little one.  Can you guys pray for me?  I really need some uplifting.  

Tuesday, August 7, 2012

What is wrong with my body?

So, since 12 weeks, I've been hanging out in zone 2, despite the 200 mg progesterone injections.  I'm 24 weeks now, and just got a call from Dr. H's office that my draw from yesterday was 44.7, zone 1.  So, they are adding progesterone suppositories.  I don't want to get worked up about this, but it does concern me.  Why is this happening?