But, of course, I'm not going to have one! But, I really could use it. By the way, the gestational diabetes test is over with, so I just went ahead and did it. But, I was crying through the whole thing because of how my doctor reacted to my desires for certain things to happen in my c-section. I had scheduled in advance a longer appointment, so he knew I was coming to talk about the c-section. He was almost antagonistic, though, when it came down to my requests. He at first refused to read a medical journal article I brought in that explained the "family-centered" c-section (which includes things like not strapping down the mother's arms, not giving her so much medication that her arms are heavy, placing the baby immediately across the mom's chest with a blanket over the two of them instead of taking the baby across the room to a warm table), but eventually toward the end of the meeting folded the article and put it in his pocket. I just felt like I was having to fight with him, and that put me in a very emotional mood as soon as I walked out of his office. I did not expect him to be so prideful and "know it all" and dismissive. Maybe after he has time to think about it all, he will lighten up and come around, but right now, I'm still crying (thanks, hormones) and thinking maybe I should switch doctors.
I mean, there were other things I wanted to discuss with him and had articles I brought, but I sure didn't bring those up yet. I wanted to talk about adhesion prevention and give him copies of Dr. H's article and another article I found that specifically talked about adhesion prevention in c-section. I did ask about sep.rafi.lm, and he claimed that it hasn't proven to make a difference, but that's not what I've read. And, so what if it doesn't? Can't hurt, right? Can he please just use it on me given that we know I'm prone to adhesions? My husband thinks we should stick with him and just bring up one issue at each visit, but after today, I'm not so sure things will go any differently at future visits. Lord, I just bring up the idea of placing the baby on my chest, and he goes off claiming it can't be done. Imagine how he'll react when I ask him to close my uterus in a certain way!
I wish I knew of a way to find a new doctor that I could know in advance would have no problem with accommodating some alternative ways of how a c-section usually goes. I wish I could just go to Omaha and have Dr. H do my c-section. Better yet, I wish I could just have a good old fashioned home birth.
